I am tied to your life … As if the umbilical cord had never been cut.
In the journey of life there are trips that are short and other trips that are long. However, standing with your head up is very difficult when you feel as if your whole being is breaking into pieces.
Faced with a possible dismissal for an indefinite period of time, we may feel weak, because the situation at hand reminds us how fragile we are if we cling and trust our human nature.
I am so used to hearing your voice every day, that I ask the empty space around my heart, if the echo of your love in the distance will be enough to overcome this pain? Because if you leave, how hard it will be to learn to live without you. Without your smile, without your advice or scolding, without that unconditional love that has sustained me every time I have failed.
Will your example and the customs that I inherit from you be enough for me? Because selfishly, I would like to extend time and stop that journey to infinity that takes you away from me.
I would like to have the strength of your character and the strength of your love, to hold your hand without shedding tears. So as not to feel lost in complete desolation.
I wish I could restore health to your body and give you the energy you need to stand up. But as much as I want to change the situation, I cannot avoid the natural passage of life.
For some time, the pain will make me suffer, but the memory of your hands on my face and the warmth of your kisses will remain with me. I know that I will no longer be able to cry on your lap and that I will have to learn to live as an adult because I will never again feel like a child in your arms.
But as long as you are still alive, I will continue to be your child. And like a child, I cling to the faith that one day we will live in a perfect world. You taught me to believe in God. You taught me to believe in myself. You taught me to live with joy. You taught me to live honestly and to be sincere. You prepared me to be strong, to face life when the end draws near and that is why I cling to what I believe.
I did not trust my own strength and I cling to the hope of one day being able to see you again.
Philippians 4: 6 Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made know unto God.
Philippians 4: 7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds thought Christ Jesus.
I know that everything has a purpose and that is why I will learn to break every tie that keeps me from accepting reality. To be humble. To face what will, and must, happen in peace. To continue living with you in my memories without sadness or pain. Because I love you and I will continue loving you into eternity “CHINITA DE MIS AMORES”.
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